Little Sprouts: Making Progress

When I started this blog one year ago, I had two reasons. One, I wanted to use blogging as a way to organize my own thoughts and feelings. I’m an introverted person who also experiences social anxiety, and unfortunately I think I’ve allowed that to hold me back in many ways. I want to realize my potential and overcome my fears and insecurities.

Two, I hoped to inspire others to do the same. Before we can start to work on ourselves, we have to be real honest and identify our problems. It isn’t easy, but it’s worth it in the long run.

I’m embarrassed to say that I’ve hardly used this blog at all. I’ve got about eight drafts saved, but I’m not happy enough with them to share just yet. However, I have been making an active effort to improve over the past year.

2014 consisted of two break-ups. After stepping out of my comfort zone long enough to date around, I’ve found that for now I’d rather be by myself and focus on the next step in my life (finding a “big girl job” post college). I learned a lot by meeting new people. I learned that I can become involved too quickly, without taking a breather to decide if it’s what I really want. I’ve also realized that being in a relationship won’t fix my problems and that I need to be happy with myself before I can be happy with someone else.

This year I have also formed many new friendships with amazing girls who are brilliant, hilarious, and inspiring. Growing up, I didn’t have many friends because I was too shy to put myself out there. I’ve learned what a blessing it is to have them and that no matter who you are, there is someone out there that will understand you, quirks and all. You’ve just got to open up.

I’ve also spent more time with family, something that used to give me serious anxiety. If you knew my family, you’d think I’m nuts because they are some of the greatest people you will ever meet. Seriously, I lucked out. I’d always been intimidated by my family–everyone is so talented, brilliant, and outgoing. I felt like a black sheep until I took the time to get to know everyone better, and then I realized that they aren’t all judging me. We all have our own strengths and weaknesses. The great thing about family is that they’re always there if you need them, and no one will love you more.

As someone who has never identified as a “people person,” this year I am grateful for the people in my life, old and new. At the end of the day, relationships are all that we have. They may be a bit of work at times, but they’re worth it.

xx Molly

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7 thoughts on “Little Sprouts: Making Progress

  1. I really like your writing style. Put up those other blogs and don’t worry about them not being perfect, as you said about your family – no one is judging you, and you don’t know who you’re inspiring by your words. Good luck x

  2. Put your words out there, you’ve got nothing to lose! You’ve clearly a supportive network which are only going to encourage. You just need now to believe in yourself, you can do it!! πŸ˜€ xx

    1. Thanks so much for the encouragement!! I’m starting to become more comfortable with sharing things on here. I am currently working on something new that I should be posting later this week πŸ™‚

  3. I relate so well to you in that I had my blog for eight months before I felt confident and motivated enough to try to write something.

    I wrote something in Word, first. Then I agonised over it for hours, writing and re-writing. By the time I had finished, I felt exhausted.

    Then, instead of posting it, I spent another hour worrying over whether it was good enough. At this point I realised that any post I make will never be good enough. I’m obsessively self-critical and obsessive. It’s part of my illness and part of my personality.

    So I just posted it and tried not to worry any more.Then I worried anyway. Will anyone read it? Like it? Worse, not like it? Follow me?

    And I had thought starting a blog might help me to beat my anxieties and depression!

    I guess what I’m trying to say is that although you may feel your post isn’t good enough, I know it will be. I like your style. It’s refreshing and honest. You are able to convey meaning and emotion extremely well. And you are interesting. I am glad I found your post and I like your others, too.

    Try not to worry about stylistic impression. It’s far more important to be able to write so that your readers can understand you, and you do this very well. I look forward to reading more of your posts. Well done.

    1. Wow, I relate to all of that so well! My most recent post was something I’d started typing up in Word months ago and just stumbled upon again. I know what it’s like to be extremely critical of your own work. My advice is that no one else will be a tougher critic than you are to yourself, and the best thing you can do is share it and takw the feedback–good and bad–in stride. Thank you so much for taking the time to read through my blog and comment such nice and supportive things–I can’t tell you how much it means to me! I will definitely post more often.

      Molly

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